he's chasing dreams hitting seams.
she's chasing dreams talking sports.
For as long as I can remember, I have loved myself. I knew exactly who I was and who I was striving to be each day.
I was Jesica the sports reporter in the making. Then I was Jesica the newspaper reporter.
I loved being Jesica the newspaper reporter. And I really loved Jesica the sports reporter when I was covering sporting events. I have so much fun being Jesica the sports reporter. But I was not/am not fulfilled. (Obviously since it was *somewhat* easy for me to quit to travel with Matt.)
Since I’ve been traveling with Matt and attending 85% (aka basically every single day) of his games so far this season, I have thought about my identity now being Jesica the baseball wife/Jesica Matt Beaty the baseball player’s wife. And as much as I love being Jesica the baseball wife and as much fun as I have being Matt Beaty the baseball player’s wife, I am not fulfilled with that as my identity either.
I got to thinking “Man, I got my first job as a reporter, I’ve talked with and met a lot of cool people through my blog, I’ve made connections in Tulsa, I’m getting to be with Matt every day and watch him play every day BUT I’m still not fulfilled. What is wrong with me…”
Days like today are the days I miss being with my mom more than usual.
But Mother's Day also makes me even more thankful for moms and especially my mom.
I see myself as a good kid, but I also know there were times I was flat out mean to my mom. As I get older, it's because I see we're so much alike. And also as I get older, I'm even more thankful for the times where I know it was hard to be my mom.
Wow what a fun filled, adventurous offseason....so fun filled and adventurous, I decided I wanted to write a blog post about it. (Jesica still can't believe it.) Of course during the season I missed my fiancé and family a lot, but I was super excited to be reunited with my puppy when I got home. As many of you know our puppy Grainger (AKA G, GG or G-baby) was a rescue from an animal shelter in south Texas and ever since the day we adopted her she has had a special place in our hearts.
With Jesica having a job in south Texas, we were lucky enough for it to still be quite warm enough to go to the beach and relax and also camp out! We got a tent as a wedding gift, and we put it right to use.
We spent four nights camping out at the beach. Wow what an experience that was. Each time we got a little better and a little bit more domestic. By the last night we stayed, I had a mini four-hole golf course set up in the sand and a large fire pit and a grill rack set up so that we could cook out. I even brought some pans so that we could have eggs and bacon for breakfast! Pretty cool to wake up to a sunrise on the beach and make some eggs and bacon! By the way. G absolutely LOVES the beach.
Jesica and I had our bachelor and bachelorette parties this offseason as well in Nashville. Not a whole lot of stories on this one except for one that really sticks out to me. The night of Jesica’s bachelorette party I had a dream that I caught her making out with Tim Tebow. Jesica swears up and down that it didn’t happen…
(Before you start this, Matt and I both very happy people…don’t go freaking out after reading this to my mom or Mrs. Lynn thinking we are just so miserable because we’re FAR from that. I’m just trying to get the point across that anxiety about the future causes unnecessary doubts and set backs and negative energy. And frankly, we’re still learning how to tackle these dreams head on instead of backing away mentally.)
A few days ago before a game, Matt sent me this blog post.
He didn’t say anything about it. He just sent the link, and that was that. I was on my way home from a work trip, and read it a few hours later while he was playing.
Instant tears. If you didn’t click the link (which you should have), I’ll give you the rundown. This blog is a coach that just blogs about different things but mostly the mental side of sports. This one Matt found talks about former minor leaguer, Alex Bregman, (seriously got called up to make his major league debut with Astros yesterday) who during an interview with ESPN was quoted saying he is taking the mental approach of just being where his feet are. He was in Triple A at the time and was basically saying he was only thinking about being there, taking each pitch and not worrying about being called up to the bigs.
Easier said than done, but seriously, what a good line. Be Where Your Feet Are.
I texted Matt during the game, and said that line is genius and applies to what we’re going through both individually and as a couple.
Honestly, I’m at the point in the season where I sort of kind of hate baseball. Not really, but I’m counting down the days until the off season. (But also look forward to listening to Matt’s games each night and feeling so proud and giddy when he makes a good play or gets a hard hit. I know what a roller coaster.) Matt and I say the words miss you at least three times a day. It’s tough. I go on venting sessions about not understanding what else he has to do to be called up or not understanding certain moves that are made.
Matt & Jesica Beaty
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"Strive for the impossible because it makes the possible seem effortless." -Matt Beaty